I think someone stepping forward to organize things is quite helpful at the moment. I've got a guess there are those other than myself who have hesitated to do so for fear of over-reaching and offending people, but we do need to get organized.
You mean like I was trying to do?
Anyway a little time has passed and I feel I should explain some of my feelings.
While most certainly this latest bit of unpleasantness contributed to my resignation, this is actually something that has been coming for a period of time.
While I do take offense at some of the things that some people have said to and about me, I have no desire to argue specifics of each individual case or discuss whether or not the offense was intended or of sufficient magnitude to warrant the response it received.
All in all such comments like “slap in the face” or “over stepping my authority” are things I would most likely ignore or attribute to frustration on the part of those that said them, but these comments simply came at the wrong time for me and I reacted to them instead of ignoring them. You can argue whether I reacted or over-reacted and like I said I’m not going to argue that level of detail but even those that might think I over-reacted must admit there is at least something there to react to.
Anyway, in isolation these things would be trivial and even if they caused momentary anger they would be nothing to hold a grudge over. I also want to stress that I don’t hold any grudge over them and hope no one holds any grudges in return. But like I mentioned at first, these things didn’t happen in a vacuum. Basically over the last few months these monthly games have become more of a chore to me and less of something to look forward to. However I felt compelled to keep playing so that I wouldn’t be responsible for any potential break in play or otherwise damage the league.
But basically when you’re playing for what other people will think versus your own enjoyment then that’s not a good reason to continue playing, but like I said I do want this league to continue even if for me it’s lost its enjoyment.
Hopefully taken in this light my resignation makes more sense to the league. These events were more of an excuse to do what I’ve wanted to do for some time as opposed to the actual reason I resigned.
I don’t want to end up like Bret Favre and make some giant fuss over retiring and then a couple of months later make a similar fuss about returning. I don’t particularly care to be called a drama king, but at least I can take solace in the fact that I wasn’t called a drama queen.
In any case I hope people can now see the motivation behind my resignation and understand the logic of it. Whether I will ever return or not, I really don’t know. If at some later time I feel the desire to play I will consider it but I will be very reluctant to do so on a whim. If I do come back it will be with some certainty that this is really what I definitely want to do for an extended period of time. It does no good to come back for a month or two only to realize that nothing has really changed.
So in any case I do hope my resignation does not negatively affect the league and I do wish the league as well as all current and future members the best of luck and would prefer to think of all involved as friends.
In any case I have no intention of disappearing from these forums and I have every intention of throwing all my efforts into helping the ToE overtake those overblown furballs (note: good natured taunting).