Defeat,as victory,is part of life.I've been through a harsh one recently,which brought me to the edge of reason,logic and life itself...i tried to fly and outwin my limits,yet gravitational and other unexpected factors worked against and had a really painful crash back on the lil planet called Earth.Didn't like the experience,yet it made me just a bit more wise and a lot more patience.Although i let myself be overcomed by passion,anger and fear for a long period of time,though i cried and stayed awake nights and nights again thinking over and over the same things at a point in all these i just couldn't take it anymore,just lost focus and probable cause.Some things are better left forgotten,even under difficult circumstances.I won't tell you to look up and move forward this time,cause i know that carpe diem does not always seem correct,when you are down there is no rule,no philosophy of life to hang on to,no words to live by,you ARE ALONE and struggle only for you.Sometimes it's better to experience failure,rejection and defeat to the maximum degree.If and when you survive you'll be a better person for you,when you come to the edge and look to the center you become able to see yourself clearly,see where you made your mistakes and acquire what is called self-knowledge.And some times a little self-knowledge is all we need...