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I guess compared to a lot of people, I know I don't have it so bad. In the long run, I know I can be thankful for so much stuff that I do (and do not) have. But, when you just feel like crap inside, that's not the only thing that can keep you sane and keep you content with your surroundings.
Lately, I just feel like I'm losing or breaking everything and anything around me. I have a lot of friends, but at this point, I really don't feel like I have any. Even the friends that meant a lot to me have done nothing but make me question whether it's easier to be a hermit. I really began to appreciate this guy and I'm still not sure what happened but all of a sudden, he decided he didn't feel like having me in his life anymore. He's this amazing guy, and such a sweetheart, and just "forgetting about him" isn't as easy as people on the outside make it sound. Earlier this year, one of my "friends" started dating this guy that I liked at the time, knowing I liked him. She's so fake and shallow. I, who prides myself on being genuine and introspective, lost this guy to my drama queen friend. It was easy for me to get over him because any guy who would go for a girl like that isn't my type anyways. But, when it just adds onto the long list of get over its, it's not as simple.
I somehow broke this ring I've had for over 10 years now. There's nothing special about this ring. It's just a round piece of gold with little decoration, but to me, there's something special about it that no one can understand. A week later, my chain broke. It was a gold chain with a pendel that always seemed to bring me faith and trust. And then my slippers broke. I know that's not such a big deal, but it just makes me wonder if all these things breaking may symbolize something in my life.
This may sound like just the typical life of a typical person, but I'll post more, and you'll find I am anything but typical.
Lately, I just feel like I'm losing or breaking everything and anything around me. I have a lot of friends, but at this point, I really don't feel like I have any. Even the friends that meant a lot to me have done nothing but make me question whether it's easier to be a hermit. I really began to appreciate this guy and I'm still not sure what happened but all of a sudden, he decided he didn't feel like having me in his life anymore. He's this amazing guy, and such a sweetheart, and just "forgetting about him" isn't as easy as people on the outside make it sound. Earlier this year, one of my "friends" started dating this guy that I liked at the time, knowing I liked him. She's so fake and shallow. I, who prides myself on being genuine and introspective, lost this guy to my drama queen friend. It was easy for me to get over him because any guy who would go for a girl like that isn't my type anyways. But, when it just adds onto the long list of get over its, it's not as simple.
I somehow broke this ring I've had for over 10 years now. There's nothing special about this ring. It's just a round piece of gold with little decoration, but to me, there's something special about it that no one can understand. A week later, my chain broke. It was a gold chain with a pendel that always seemed to bring me faith and trust. And then my slippers broke. I know that's not such a big deal, but it just makes me wonder if all these things breaking may symbolize something in my life.
This may sound like just the typical life of a typical person, but I'll post more, and you'll find I am anything but typical.
